Day Three Crohn's Awareness Week: Anger #crohns #ibd #uc

Anger. Sometimes I am filled with it. I hate death and plan to have a discussions my maker when I arrive. I especially hate death when it comes to young ones with Crohn's disease and there are many. Did you know that newborns are born with this disease?

The saying goes death from complications of Crohn's disease like short bowel syndrome. My fellow Crohnie here in Grass Valley past away a year ago. She died in just months from short bowel syndome. One day we were talking and the next she was gone. She had been on Prednisone for almost a year. She was just a little older than me and she fought hard. I am blessed compaired to the fight she waged.

I get angry every time a new biologic comes out. I don't want to manage Crohns I want to cure it. I hate watching my son and daughter suffer. It makes me so angry. Obviously there is a genetic component. Let's start there. Most GI docs don't really understand the struggle and the pain. Unless you live it it is impossible to understand. I work through my anger by writing but not everyone has such a perfect outlet.

​I hate cancelling plans and I hate accidently ingesting something that makes me sick. I hate relying on my family, doctor's visits, hospital visits and more. Crohn's steals your self confidence and humbles you greatly. Some have spouses that can't cope. I am blessed to have someone who watches me like a hawk.

Phew, that's enough for now.

I think that covers most of my anger issues. Obviously I have acceptance problems.

​All that said, I am a new practioner of mindful living. The more I stay focused on the present the more peaceful I become. It makes life better and the journey into acceptance easier. Thanks for listening.

Tomorrow's subject? Popcorn.

​Sending prayers to the Oakland fire victims and families.

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