Crossing Over into the Sixties

I may be 60, but it's just my physical body that's aging. I've always considered my earth suit  as something I have to wear to visit this dimension, but like everything on this blasted planet, it wears out. Some suits wear out earlier than others and some later. The process is dictated by the genes that make up our suits and how well we care for them. We come with glitches in our genes and we learn to work though them. Each glitch is there to provide purpose, compassion, and empathy. We also learn that evil does exist. How that fits into the paradigm is still beyond me.

My theory is probably why I enjoy reading/writing science fiction.

I thought I would list a few things I've found rather nice about getting older.

1. No need for long term thinking.

 I don't need to plan what's going to happen 30 years from now. If the odds are with me, I won't be here. And even if I am, I"ll probably have dementia and be a burden on my children. Either way, the I that is me won't be here, so there's no sense in worrying about something I won't even know about.

2. Climbing the ladder.

I won't be climbing ladders anytime soon. Not the physical ones or the work-a-day ones. I've gone as far as possible in this lifetime. I have discovered that I don't like being the boss and I'm not crazy about being an employee and I HATE accounting. Five years from now, all that will be a non-issue. I might as well let it go now and save myself some grief.

3. I know my own mind.

I am a fiscal conservative with a liberal conscience. I am neither Republican or Democrat. I hold both in equal disdain. I am a Christian because I believe we are on this planet to choose. Since I don't want to come back again, I have chosen not to believe in reincarnation or Buddhism or various other beliefs and/or lifestyles.  I don't believe in organized religion, either.  I also believe in every person's right to chose no matter the issue. BUT, just as I respect your opinions, please treat mine with the respect they deserve.

4. I accept who I am.

I have Crohn's disease. I cannot live up to anyone's expectations except my own. I also have Fibromyalgia. I may feel good today, but perhaps not tomorrow or even this evening. Heaven forbid I accidentally eat pineapple. My mouth will break out into a dozen ulcers. Or cinnamon for that matter. If I make plans then break them, you will have to accept that being friends with me comes with baggage. If you can't accept that baggage, don't try to be my friend. It's easier on everyone and I am not offended.

5. I have limits 

Since I have limited energy, I choose to spend it on my family and that's okay. I no longer feel guilty for the things I cannot do, but rejoice in the things I can.

These are some really awesome things to learn about oneself. I am constantly surprised at my continued creation even as I grow older.

I'd like to thank everyone for the birthday wishes. I had so many of them it became impossible for me to reach out personally to each person. I do thank you, and I do appreciate each and every note.

(((hugs)))

Louann