It's Thursday and today is the best I've felt in years. OK, that's a lie. I spent the entire morning spreading that lie. I'm thinking, if I think positive, positive things will happen. Of course, you have to believe in the positivity you are thinking about. When you're in a lot of pain it's hard to believe you are not in pain. But if the create your own reality people are right, I have to ignore the pain. This is so not doable. Where's that Tramadol? I DID feel good--almost normal--for three days last week. Then, just when I was thinking remission was possible, maybe even probable, my hopes were dashed. *shrugs shoulders* Life with Crohn's has its ups and downs. Hell, life has its up and downs. I know people are working on cures. There's the hookworm thing, the bone marrow transplant thing, the pro and pre-biotics thing. There's the alkaline--acidic balance, the yeast balance, the.... I could go on. I will not eat worms and have yet to discover one single person who has been cured by eating worms. *talk to the hand* No worms! Bone marrow sounds like the best option. 100% cure, but very very dangerous. My grandchildren won't forgive me if I leave the planet so soon. They like me. I don't know why, but they do. I like them, too. I sometimes get too involved in their lives, but they are loved. *big squeezes* And that is the most important part. I did the caveman diet. Lost some weight. Got sick. Whatever. I am a positive person. Crohn's makes it difficult to stay that way. This flare is almost nine years old. The longest my other one lasted was two years. Otherwise, it was a month or two then gone for a year or so. I am contemplating the unthinkable. Surgery. *falls over* Maybe the family will bring me presents. I know my husband will never leave the hospital room. I mean, I love the guy, but when I'm in hospital, he's there at 8am and doesn't leave until 10pm. Can't bear to hurt his feelings and kick him out. That's a good reason not to have surgery. Things I wonder, but refuse to ask the doctor, because then he'll know just how bad I am: 1. Will the Crohn's arthritis go away, too? 2. With the Erthema Nodosum go away? 3. Will the ankylosing spondylitis go away? Because if not, I might as well keep my colon. What's one more painful condition? They say you can only feel one pain at a time. *taps fingers* I guess if I'm still thinking about surgery, I'm not there yet. It was the blood this morning. I got scared. Oh, poof. Suck it up, Lucy. Just my thoughts for today. (((hugs))) Louann
Cheryl
5/9/2013 07:37:20 am
EW! My husband does the same thing. I don't know about the other questions. :)
Shawna
5/9/2013 07:54:32 am
My understanding is that once the inflammation is gone then the other autoimmune diseases disappear. I could be wrong.
Louann
5/11/2013 01:18:00 am
I still haven't found my answers. Everyone--even docs--have differing opinions. Comments are closed.
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