The loss of a child is heartbreaking. Whether it is by divorce, death, or personal choice the agony takes your breath away.
Grief follows me every second of my life. Each morning I get up and walk by your picture. I see you heading out the front door that last Christmas more than two years ago. I say, "I love you," and you answer back, "I love you, too, Grandma." Until today. I went about my morning ritual and as I walked the hall I said, "I love you." It took a moment, and then with crushing intensity I realized I could no longer hear your voice. I hadn't planned for this. I thought I would always hear you. There is so much I want to tell you, so much I want to share. Sometimes, I talk to you in my mind, giving you lessons on life, telling funny stories and sometimes, I imagine giving you a hug. Now I can't share stories with you. I can't hear you anymore. Even your laughter is gone. Gone. All gone... with your voice. I know I will move beyond this, because I've learned you cannot live in grief forever. But, the sudden loss of your voice is like a knife in my heart. It will stay there for a time and a time again. But, not forever. You never forget, but you do learn how to live with the pain.
Bettysue
2/19/2015 08:27:14 am
I'm sorry. My heart hurts. My emotions are searching for words to help you. Can a long distance He g help?
Louann
2/19/2015 08:40:27 am
Always. Comments are closed.
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